The party is over. I should be happy or relaxed, I’m not. I finally also finished Scandal on Netflix. Now I’m watching Sense 8 but it’s not helping my feelings. Last night I took my meds plus drank a few beers. I passed out at 9pm and slept 12 1/2 hours. I plan on doing the same thing tonight. My mom leaves for Atlanta at 5am and says she wants my phone charger for their cruise. I put that as well as other stuff from the party in a bag for them but have no drive to take it over to their house. I just took my medicine and have had a few beers already tonight. I just want to sleep.
The party was great. Their friends that came were very sweet and positive to me about the party. The food was awesome I was told as well as the cake. I did not get to eat the barbecue (too busy welcoming guests) and only had 2 bites of the cake because it was way too strong for my taste. It was amaretto and stronger than I thought it would be. I haven’t seen any pictures yet but I’m sure they came out great. I went back yesterday to clean and I was told today that I’ll get my money back. I’m happy to get my $200 back since I have no more money coming in. My parents leave for their cruise in a few days and they will have a great time. I’ll be taking care of their house while they are gone too so I get a vacation (kind of a staycation but yeah). Below is the cake from the party as well as my mom’s wedding dress from 1965 that she wants me to sell.
I’m not doing that great anxiety wise. I started taking Prozac a week ago but it doesn’t seem to help. I want to drink all the time. I smoke a cigarette and 10 minutes later don’t remember I did so I smoke again. It’s like oops, I forgot! This coming from the person that was quitting!
Anyway, I need to concentrate on finding a job that doesn’t require me to remember things or have much responsibility and let’s me only work during weekdays so I can be there for my child in the evenings and weekends. If you know of anything like that, let me know. My medicine makes me forget things so I have trouble remembering. I’m going to watch Netflix tonight and pass out, I hope everyone has a great week! Hugs!
